I'm on a roll

[catch22girl]

Up to 4pm -- and a little fic snippet slipped into my head after watching the debriefing scene w/ Nina and Teri.

After last night's im conversation, the Palmer meets Jack scene had *brand* new meaning - *giggle*.

In an instant, Nina's feelings for Jack's wife went from neutral to intense dislike.

It was hard enough letting him go. It was impossible to relive it all over again.

Although she knew that this was vital, that she had to get out of the house quickly, the rehashing of the past was more painful than she could have predicted.

Teri sat there, looking at her with knowing eyes. Teri, who wore loose fitting clothes and shorn hair. She, who had won, who was always going to win, who had a successful life and a beautiful daughter. And most importantly, the heart of the man who Nina had foolishly let herself want.

The tears in her eyes weren't faked, this was all going wrong, she couldn't even figure out who she was playing for anymore.

Teri wrote off her feelings and boiled it down to something that made her sound like a whore. It was the same way Alberta talked to her, the same things that Mason had implied -- only it was worse.

She hated losing, and to admit to this woman that she'd lost, that no matter what she did, it wasn't enough to keep him, made her want to get out of there as fast as humanly possible.

Even if she didn't already need to leave.

Listening to him saying all forms of endearment and proclamations of love on the phone, the sound of his voice when he talked to Teri, Nina believed it was her penance for her actions.

But most hurtful of all, the fact that he would kill her, without hesitation, to save this other woman's life.

She knew what Teri looked like, but had always assumed she would be somehow special, that when in her presence she would understand why she lost.

Instead, she was being told that instead of appearing impartial and distant, her true feelings simmered to the surface. Although his being alive and reunited with his family went against every carefully constructed plan, for a moment, she was relieved.

In this game, she played against herself.

Hours earlier, she'd felt blood against her fingers, and had to pretend that it was a surprise to find a body. For most of her life, she had pretended a part. Yet, in this instance, her heart had betrayed her. She knew, this is what led to being captured or killed.

She looked at her watch, almost eight hours until midnight.

Have I mentioned how much I *heart* season one? And Mason was there! Mason!

Ahem.

Comments

[rezie.livejournal.com]

She knew what Teri looked like, but had always assumed she would be somehow special, that when in her presence she would understand why she lost.

Oh god.. it's too painful. And maybe because I'm too blinded by my Nina!love but that in that whole safehouse exchange, I didnt feel any empathy for Teri. At all. And felt myself aligning more to Nina's heartbreak.

It always kills me when I watch that scene with Jack talking to Teri/Kim with Nina on the phone.. you just know it was breaking her inside to listen to that conversation.

Ugh.. just adds to the briliance of S1.